Phantom Sister

by Linda Simoni-Wastila

Marlena comes to me on the cusp of sleep and wakefulness, when the world blurs grey. She soars through yellow-tinted waves, her bald shining skull pushing through water. Although she never speaks, she makes a gurgling sound, high-pitched like the bottle-nosed dolphins at the aquarium. I look but never see her face. When I wake, the bottoms of my feet sting as though I walked over a yard of smoking coals. Those mornings I call in sick and sleep in the boat’s hold. The gentle rocking hugs me.

My twin sister Maria lives halfway around the world in the Catoctin Mountains. She paints and writes poems about trees. We rarely see each other but the internet tethers us. Maria has the same dreams about Marlena – we think of them as visitations — but she feels the ache in her chest, the left side, a sharp pain like someone has plunged in an icy hand and wrested out her heart. Afterwards she also feels an uncommon, exhausting peace. We wonder if this is how we tangled in our mother’s womb: hands to feet to heart.

Thanksgiving Day, I find myself alone on the boat, flipping through scrapbooks, missing my sister. I find an old photo of the two of us, a college road trip to Baltimore. Our smiling faces squeezed together, the Washington monument towers behind us. I scan the picture, push send. The image zips to Maria’s mountaintop. Seconds later, she writes back. “There’s a hole between us.” I look closer at the photograph and my soles burn.

Linda Simoni-Wastila writes from Baltimore, where she also professes, mothers, and gives a damn. Her stories and poem are published or forthcoming at Smokelong Quarterly, Monkeybicycle, Scissors and Spackle, MiCrow, The Sun, The Poet’s Market 2013, Hoot, Connotation Press, Camroc Press Review, Right Hand Pointing, Every Day Fiction, and Nanoism, among others. Senior Fiction Editor at JMWW, she works one word at a time towards her MA in Creative Writing at Johns Hopkins and two novels-in-progress. In between, when she can’t sleep, she blogs at http://linda-leftbrainwrite.blogspot.

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10 Comments on “Phantom Sister”

  1. November 22, 2012 at 11:28 pm #

    Thank you for sharing your creativity. I thoroughly enjoy your writing.
    Love and Light,


  2. November 23, 2012 at 12:26 am #

    as the father of twins, I found the poetry and lyricism in the last two paragraphs of this very beautiful indeed


  3. November 23, 2012 at 4:09 pm #

    Thank you both for reading this small story of linkages, seen and unseen. Peace…


  4. Deanna Schrayer
    November 24, 2012 at 2:25 pm #

    Linda, this is absolutely beautiful, poignant, perfect.


    • December 7, 2012 at 3:07 am #

      Hi Deanna! Thanks so much for stopping by. How are you doing?


      • Deanna Schrayer
        December 7, 2012 at 3:11 pm #

        Hi Melissa! At this time I’m absolutely looney (Big Life Change going on) but I look forward to getting back into he swing of things, hopefully with a brand new blog.
        I hope you’re doing well and that you – and you Linda – have a wonderful Christmas!


        • December 7, 2012 at 4:08 pm #

          Good luck with the big life change. Sending good energy. I’m going through a couple of big ones myself. Let me know when you start the new blog!! And you have a wonderful Christmas as well!!!


  5. August 12, 2013 at 11:40 am #

    Linda, this is beautiful and so deep. Thank you for sharing.


    • September 1, 2014 at 12:05 pm #

      Help, I’ve been informed and I can’t become ignatonr.


    • September 4, 2014 at 12:08 pm #

      That insight’s just what I’ve been looking for. Thanks!


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