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Humanscapes

By Nicholas Quin Serenati

Humanscapes is the final post in a three-part series, which began with Locating Place: Fragments of an Illness.

About the series: Illness experience is a resource for experiential knowledge. To that extent, it is important to understand that life has infinite spaces which can be experienced. My work is concerned with phenomenological experiences that transform these spaces into places. These places become the foundations in our individual lives – the construct of our identity. The work in this series is intended to ascertain an understanding of the ways meaning–making functions as a method for healing, and how the creative process operates to uncover and identify new metaphors that best communicate illness experience to others.

 

HUMANSCAPES

 

In Bob Trowbridge’s book, The Hidden Meaning of Illness: Disease as a Symbol and Metaphor, a philosophical engagement is established with how illness penetrates the process of being human. What illness does for a person is quite unique and individualized. For me, I find that illness is an experience that can stifle and complicate the order of living. However, I believe that illness experience offers an opportunity to transcend the basic containment of being ill and evolve into a more knowledgeable and inspired being. Similar to the process of art making, illness is a process of discovery. During illness experience, an opportunity arises to untether from the superficialities that compound life and embrace the moments of being vulnerable, confused and weak in order to flourish in strength, beauty and wisdom.

Humanscapes presents an extremely straightforward and customary point of view on illness. The work embodies the typical tone and nature that possesses aggression and horror. Humanscapes is an exploration of the human condition as I perceive it to be through my illness experience. Specifically, the exploration dealt with juxtaposition of content – image and poetry – and in doing so, the overarching philosophical questions emerges: what would resonate?

 

 

Collected Spaces

 

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Pathosis.

Death comes during the twilight.
An opera of suffocating screams,
tuned in the key of pain.
Pitch perfect, echoing across barren landscapes.
Injections, ravenous poison, constricting veins.
Internal asphyxiation.

A lifeless marionette standing on a thorn’s edge of a cacti.
Sand storms perform a ritual dance
to a fiddling devil, vultures circle above.
Breath shallows, eyes hollow, heart slows, flesh blisters.
Red-eyed from hearing my mother’s cry.
Tears from angels come crashing down, loud.
Collected by the hands of a decomposing crowd.
Now, we can bathe, and be covered in a linen shroud.

Traces of red from these fingertips,
Ink that flows and pens this script.
What is left are bloodstains,
from life’s dismissed.
I’d be remiss, if a history of illness went claimless.
Anabiosis.

 

Timberland

 

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I tasted illness.

Flavored by metallic bitterness of wicked misery,
It sped through my veins.
A devouring plague,
An internal decomposition;
The memory hangs in the timberland of my mind.
Silent, static, yet ever present.

 

 

Matches

 

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I sympathize with those who lie still.
The light has escaped them;
and now, darkness.

I find it eerily near.
Stillness.
Vulnerability that will always remain.

In the shadows,
just as ugly.
Dark separation is home.

Shadows misplaced,
Lying dormant with others.

 

 

Windows

 

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Overshadowed by internments of negative space,
Reflection blinds the wonder of escape.

A room,
Void of definition, exists little to name.
Balanced by masses,
Whispers of nothingness fall short of noise.

Beneath an image is the image.
Transcending the real for a rendering of another;
The antagonistic image that requires such attention.

Light, the consciousness of wisdom;
Darkness, its frame

 

 

The Old Oak House

 

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A splintering in the wood on the side of this old oak house reminds me of that winter.

Crackling echoes through the chilled air from slivers separating.

This old oak house is in ruins, decaying inside out.

I stand by the window looking out.

My fingers run across the weathered wood interior,

Pieces of the old oak break away and fall around my feet.

 

That morning, trees stood still, birds frozen in flight.

Water ran down the grooves of the rusted metal roof, down the pane of glass

Like rain, dropping down upon my forehead.

The old oak house dampened.

The crackling grew louder.

Light from the sun turned away and darkness loomed.

 

Near the old oak house, a river cut through the land like a knife.

Steam from the water smothered a rolling landscape,

A scorching water flow.

Condensation ran down trunks of trees, off tips of leaves, down the plank wood siding

of the old oak house.

Soaked was the landscape.

 

Just beyond the old oak house, past the riverbank, into the distance, a forest.

From the thicket of brush and pine, a dark horse emerged.

Massive and stoic it stood, flaring its nostrils, sensing the frigid still air.

Black, lifeless eyes peered in the direction of the old oak house.

 

With a gait slow and steady, the dark horse neared.

I moved aside of the window, peering out carefully

Fear lumped in my throat as his presence grew broader.

The dark horse approached the edge of the riverbank.

Blood trickled from his fractured hooves into the water.

The red streamed down current.

I gasped from inside that old oak house; the dark horse stared.

That is where we remained.

 

Nicholas Quin SerenatiNicholas Quin Serenati is an interdisciplinary scholar-artist whose work is defined by arts-based research that explores the potential of medium and discipline in liminal spaces. With a practice rooted in locating one’s place, Serenati employs video, creative writing, photography, sound, installation and performance to investigate forming situations that direct his research around illness and metaphor.

Serenati’s intellectual practice deeply engages the creation of meaning – form and function – and the articulation of story throughout the investigative process. Themes of trauma, identity, illness, disability, experimental narrative, social constructivism, sound and language are all contributing factors to Serenati’s work as a critical discourse. Serenati’s scholarly-art practice is intended to investigate phenomena as a way of achieving profound knowledge of theory, philosophy and art.

Based out of St. Augustine, Florida, Serenati holds a BA in Communications from Flagler College, an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts from Goddard College, and is a candidate for his Ph.D. in Interdisciplinary Studies: Humanities and Culture from Union Institute & University. He is currently the Art Director / Dept. Chair of the Cinematic Arts program at Douglas Anderson School of the Arts and an adjunct professor of media and cinema studies at Flagler College.

Serenati’s dissertation, ReFraming Leukemia: Metaphorizing Illness as Windows, will be completed May 2014, and the installation of the project is set for early 2015 in St. Augustine, Florida.

Twitter: @nqserenati
Website: nqserenati.com

Reclaiming Experiential Residue: Misconceptions

by Nicholas Quin Serenati

Reclaiming Experiential Residue: Misconceptions is the second of a three-part series, which began with Locating Place: Fragments of an Illness. The third and final part is Humanscapes.

About the series: Illness experience is a resource for experiential knowledge. To that extent, it is important to understand that life has infinite spaces which can be experienced. My work is concerned with phenomenological experiences that transform these spaces into places. These places become the foundations in our individual lives – the construct of our identity. The work in this series is intended to ascertain an understanding of the ways meaning–making functions as a method for healing, and how the creative process operates to uncover and identify new metaphors that best communicate illness experience to others.


 

Reclaiming Experiential Residue: Misconceptions

Illness is a window to foresight. My proposed metaphor is a dynamic performance. This metaphor encompasses experience, object, space, language, sound, translation and meaning as a surfacing of my experience with illness. I have chosen a window for two significant attributes: an object – a way of being, and a lens – a way of seeing. With this approach, the window is a reconstitution of my body in a place – or experience – that is designed by time and space. Time, within the relationship of this video, provides insight into a spatiotemporal system. This system is intended to shape perception and impart meaning. Employing this conceptual system of spatiotemporal thinking has a history that also needs unpacking.

In 1922, Sigmund Freud published his analysis of the conventional understanding of traumatic neurosis in his book, Beyond the Pleasure Principle. In Freud’s analysis, he identified two major effects of traumatic neurosis that go beyond the conservative notion of physical injury (8). Most critical to Freud’s analysis are two polarizing and complex effects. First, the idea of a negative effect is characterized by the defensive action of suppressing the traumatic event as a method of avoiding a reliving of the event. The second, the positive effect, is using methods to bring the event back into operation, or as Freud states, “confirm the reconstruction of [the patient’s] own memory” (17-18). It is of my opinion that the positive effect approach exercises with success illness experience. Presently, this approach can be deemed most effective by contemporary applications such as journaling and creative outputs (i.e., painting, drawing, photography, etc.) and will play a central role in the theory that underpins this project.

In elaborating on illness experience, a trauma is absorbed and an influential preoccupation with that experience becomes rooted in the psyche of the patient. This preoccupation can have a deeply profound result on the way an individual perceives and lives with illness experience. Through methods of positive effect approaches – repeating, reliving and re-organizing – the traumatic experience will serve as a source of knowledge building. In using video art as the method of positive effect operation, there exists a fascinating application with digital media that support, and in some cases, goes beyond the ideas presented by Freud when it comes to “repetition-compulsion” (Freud, 19).

The idea of repetition and compulsion is a landmark in video art and I will use this method to emphasize the focus of the work’s investigation of metaphorical construction and meaningful subtext. For example, one key component to the structure of video art is time.  Through the employment of repetition, or the loop, time can be utilized to suspend the real so that a greater attention can be paid to an element that may be, in the real, too small.  More specifically, the idea is to narrow the scope of time on a particular sequence of footage, lock in a specific set of in and out points within the timecode of the video, and encode a repetitious sequence that delivers a cycle meditated on a specific idea(s). Another key component in the structure of time is the notion of speed. The rendering of speed not only shifts the paradigm of what is believed to be footage of real time, it also changes the context by ramping up or slowing the speed down to a hyper-real interpretation. In influencing these few attributes, the work moves outside of normality and is reconfigured to communicate a new perception of reality – or provide exposure to an augmented reality.

This augmented reality is a justification of constructing methods of sight. Time and space manipulation of the video project will inform the ways the work is engaged, meditated, and understood. For instance, the window is the conceptual anchor – for being and seeing differently. The concept of a window extracted from its traditional context and placed directly in an aesthetic situation, is intended to communicate an idea of illness within the body.

Misconceptions (2012) is a body of work that enforces the notion of repetition, time, and space. Additionally, the work was produced from a mixed methodology approach involving the weaving of my Buddhist mediation practice and art practice. From this particular approach, the objective is to select a location that I am interested in investigating – at times it is planned and others it is meant to be spontaneous and thus would explain my work with new media and mobile devices – and I arrange my meditation session along with the setup of my camera. If I choose video, I record the entire meditative session. If I choose still photography, I wait to the moment that my meditation is complete and I either use a short or long exposure to capture the moment. Misconceptions employs video as the means of documentation and a window as a center of interest. Interestingly enough, this experience inspired some creative writing that I shortly after I stopped recording the session. Later, I recorded the prose with a talent that I frequently use in my pieces and embedded the audio track in the video to complete the work. This project was the first in a series of experiments intended on achieving dharma art.


Nicholas Quin SerenatiNicholas Quin Serenati is an interdisciplinary scholar-artist whose work is defined by arts-based research that explores the potential of medium and discipline in liminal spaces. With a practice rooted in locating one’s place, Serenati employs video, creative writing, photography, sound, installation and performance to investigate forming situations that direct his research around illness and metaphor.

Serenati’s intellectual practice deeply engages the creation of meaning – form and function – and the articulation of story throughout the investigative process. Themes of trauma, identity, illness, disability, experimental narrative, social constructivism, sound and language are all contributing factors to Serenati’s work as a critical discourse. Serenati’s scholarly-art practice is intended to investigate phenomena as a way of achieving profound knowledge of theory, philosophy and art.

Based out of St. Augustine, Florida, Serenati holds a BA in Communications from Flagler College, an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts from Goddard College, and is a candidate for his Ph.D. in Interdisciplinary Studies: Humanities and Culture from Union Institute & University. He is currently the Art Director / Dept. Chair of the Cinematic Arts program at Douglas Anderson School of the Arts and an adjunct professor of media and cinema studies at Flagler College.

Serenati’s dissertation, The ReFraming of Leukemia: Metaphor, Buddhism, Art and Illness Experience, will be completed May 2014, and the installation of the project is set for early 2015 in St. Augustine, Florida.

Twitter: @nqserenati
Website: nqserenati.com

 

Locating Place: Fragments of an Illness

by Nicholas Quin Serenati

Locating Place: Fragments of an Illness is the beginning of a three-part series. The next installment is Reclaiming Experiential Residue: Misconceptions.

About the series: Illness experience is a resource for experiential knowledge. To that extent, it is important to understand that life has infinite spaces which can be experienced. My work is concerned with phenomenological experiences that transform these spaces into places. These places become the foundations in our individual lives – the construct of our identity. The work in this series is intended to ascertain an understanding of the ways meaning–making functions as a method for healing, and how the creative process operates to uncover and identify new metaphors that best communicate illness experience to others.

 

Screenshot 1, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Screenshot 1, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

 

We all have bodies. This is not a truism. It is not an exercise in the obvious. It is a fact – and a fact of a special kind. It is an incontestable fact. Everything we do, we do as or by means of our body. We cannot get beyond the fact that we are bodies. The body is, simply put, where everything in human culture begins and ends.     

(Tobin Siebers, Disability Aesthetics)

 

Screenshot 2, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Screenshot 2, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

When I look at the work that I have produced as an artist, I have come to realize the importance of the body as the locus for inquiry and discovery. The idea of the body as a critical lens for investigating the theoretical and philosophical implications of representation and voice in illness experience is a common thread in my work – whether consciously or subconsciously. My unrelenting interest of the body can most easily be attributed to a personal experience with illness when in 2001 I was diagnosed with Acute Myelogenous Leukemia (AML).

Screenshot 3, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Screenshot 3, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Being a young man at the time, the profundity of this experience sparked a curiosity of the human condition that has lingered in many ways over the course of 13 years in remission. Most notably, my illness experience has emerged as a significant preoccupation in my research and creative work. Mortality, representation, voice, identity, humanness, Buddhism, metaphors, illness and disability studies as well as the formal and experimental aesthetics that encompass my art practice, have all played a vital role in the identification of place in my life.

Screenshot 4, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Screenshot 4, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

The study of the bodymy body – as a territory occupied by illness is my attempt to pierce to the marrow of the questions that inform my art practice. That is why I believe it is through the study of illness experience that a deeply engaged and meaningful source for experiential knowledge can be achieved.

In this particular exploration, I employed video and sound design to execute a reconstruction of experience.

Screenshot 5, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

Screenshot 5, Fragments of an Illness, 2011

The result is my 2011 film, Fragments of an Illness. This film came to exist as a final research project in my doctoral course, HMS 711: The Human Condition: Pursuit of Happiness. Fragments of an Illness situates specific recollections as a metaphorzed-reality within the film. Presented with a concentration into the blending of speed, color, composition, language, sound, and narrative establishment(s), these fragments were my attempt to bridge a dialogue about illness with the aesthetics of the medium and conceivable metaphorical notions.

 

Nicholas Quin SerenatiNicholas Quin Serenati is an interdisciplinary scholar-artist whose work is defined by arts-based research that explores the potential of medium and discipline in liminal spaces. With a practice rooted in locating one’s place, Serenati employs video, creative writing, photography, sound, installation and performance to investigate forming situations that direct his research around illness and metaphor.

Serenati’s intellectual practice deeply engages the creation of meaning – form and function – and the articulation of story throughout the investigative process. Themes of trauma, identity, illness, disability, experimental narrative, social constructivism, sound and language are all contributing factors to Serenati’s work as a critical discourse. Serenati’s scholarly-art practice is intended to investigate phenomena as a way of achieving profound knowledge of theory, philosophy and art.

Based out of St. Augustine, Florida, Serenati holds a BA in Communications from Flagler College, an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts from Goddard College, and is a candidate for his Ph.D. in Interdisciplinary Studies: Humanities and Culture from Union Institute & University. He is currently the Art Director / Dept. Chair of the Cinematic Arts program at Douglas Anderson School of the Arts and an adjunct professor of media and cinema studies at Flagler College.

Serenati’s dissertation, ReFraming Leukemia: Metaphorizing Illness as Windows, will be completed May 2014, and the installation of the project is set for early 2015 in St. Augustine, Florida.

Twitter: @nqserenati
Website: nqserenati.com